I was walking down main street and the snow was blowing, the air was crisp, and the music playing on my iPod made me feel like I was alone in some sort of movie. The cars were whooshing by, and I felt alone. So alone.
In a crowded bus, I felt alone and scared. At home I am always alone. Even today when I was in a house with 6 small kids and 3 adults I felt alone. I broke into tears and ran for the nearest bus stop. I couldn’t handle it.
I just can’t handle life right now. I want to isolate and hide and just… I need out of my head so badly.! I can barely pick up my own computer, it’s pathetic.
Only two things are getting me through, Jake and Hayley. They are the reason that I am still alive. I love you guys.